How Is Your Heart?

How is your heart? It is not an easy question to answer. I was first asked this question while on a phone call with a friend. Frankly, I was taken aback by the question? It is not a typical, “How are you?” that demands “I’m okay” as a response. This question went a lot deeper than that and needed me to actually introspect. When I was asked this question, I was forced to think about how I was really doing, the condition of my emotions and where my mind was in that moment while, of course, not taking too much time because my friend was on the other end of the call, genuinely waiting to hear my answer.

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For this week’s blogpost, I thought it would be a good idea for me to bring this question to you. Let’s get a little bit interactive today. I need you to imagine we are in the same room, facing each other and having a very interesting and open conversation. I then ask you how your heart is and you know I really want to know. I offer to go first. Just to allow you to get comfortable. My response is quite personal and vulnerable. Prepare yourself for that.

How Is My Heart?

Quite frankly, my heart today is feeling all sorts of emotions. A part of me is confused, another part is excited, another is afraid and another part is at peace.

My heart is confused because I thought I had figured out “imposter syndrome” until two days ago. I stepped out and did something I had never done before. It was a good thing but right after I was done, I felt like I should have never stepped out in the first place and things would have been better if I just stayed back in my little comfortable corner. I have been feeling like I didn’t deserve the opportunity I was given and I shouldn’t have taken it because it just isn’t for me. My heart today feels like I should just quit the whole thing so that the opportunity never comes up again. I have avoided talking about the experience with anyone. I am, in fact, sharing this for the first time with you. I am actively avoiding any conversation about the same. My heart just feels like I should have never stepped out and I should have never taken that opportunity that was given to me. I didn’t fail, I just shouldn’t have done it. So my heart is confused because I thought I should have dealt with “imposter syndrome” by now.

Another part of my heart feels excited. Excited because of the so many good things that are on the horizon and I KNOW will happen to me. My heart is excited because I know I will be financially independent soon. I’m not right now but I can’t wait to be. That will lift a lot of burdens off my shoulder. My heart feels expectant for the changes I know I am going to experience and my heart feels ready for them.

At the same time, my heart feels afraid. Afraid of what the change will come with. My heart is also afraid of messing up at my job because I recently started working and I have so much to learn. I understand the need to show myself grace and be patient with myself but I just want to know it all now so that I don’t design a structure that could potentially fail due to my miscalculations.

My heart is also afraid that I may destroy a very important relationship because I seem to be making a lot of mistakes these days while at the same time trying to navigate change in the relationship. My heart is afraid of losing that relationship.

Finally, my heart is at peace. I know. It makes no sense as to how I can be feeling all these things but yet be at peace simultaneously. I recently embarked on a journey to rediscover God. I decided to really look into my spiritual life and I’m so glad I did. I have learnt so much about God and the reality of God in my life and everything around me. I am finding peace in the fact that God is good and God can only be good. At the same time, my heart is “unsure” when I think about how this will affect my physical life and the person I am. Regardless, God is always good.

That’s how my heart is. Now tell me;

How Is Your Heart?

You can share your answers with me in the comments section. Allow yourself to be as open and as vulnerable as you can be. It is important to be honest with yourself. Alternatively, you can write your answers in your Journal if you don’t want to share here.

I would love to interact with you and where possible, help you through whatever your heart is going through if you would want that.

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Thanks for reading!
Wonani Xx


10 thoughts on “How Is Your Heart?

  1. i just found your blog and i’m really loving it. My heart has been kind of heavy for quite a while honestly. but through this i’ve learnt so much about myself, the people around me and about what i value and it is so groundbreaking to finally feel like i know myself to such a depth. for a while i thought i would never ever know myself so i am grateful. I’m also hoping for a positive future and a change in my heart space! I love the safe space you’ve created here and i’m really grateful ❤

    star x

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    1. I’m glad you’re loving it!
      I’m so happy you’re learning about yourself. Yes to a change in your heart space and a positive future.

      I sincerely do hope your heart is a lot lighter. You deserve that.
      Thanks for reading and being vulnerable enough to share with me. You’re amazing! ♥️


  2. Thanks for sharing all of your feelings, it takes so much strength to do that! I’d say my heart feels fairly at peace and is healing up pretty well from a painful breakup that happened months ago. I think my heart is always fairly peaceful but my head is always the thing that wants to push things along. My heart is super open now and ready for love. Ready to give and to receive and ready to be seen. And my heart is grateful for the love I already have in my life 💕 Thank you for sharing and for letting me share! xo

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  3. I so get how you feel about ‘imposter syndrome’. Honestly, doing things out of our comfort zone can also lead to feeling that way – it doesn’t mean that we don’t deserve it. I recently went to an all women entrepreneur meet up and felt like I so don’t belong because I haven’t done anything big yet. But that doesn’t mean I don’t belong – it just means I need to work harder to feel like I belong with all those amazing women.
    Making mistakes in relationships is human. Realizing and improving on it is what matters.
    Yayay – to financial independence. Love when women are financially independent.
    My heart has been very burdened. My grandmom passed away and my grandpa is in the hospital and I just feel emotionally toiled. 😦 But here’s hoping things look up soon.

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    1. Yes! You do belong Moksha. You always will!

      I’m so sorry for your loss and I sure do hope your grandpa recovers really soon. That surely does sound emotionally taxing, Sending you lots of love and the warmest of hugs.



  4. I like how open this felt and how a lot of it is relatable. I can imagine how much it took you back to be asked this, cause this is one of those things that never cross our minds unless you do deep introspection. It’s scary looking inwards sometimes. The type of fear attached to the “unknown”. I don’t think it’s something I’m ready to do just yet, but reading what you had to say about yourself and it being a realistic balance of emotions is a good reminder that it’s okay not to be certain sometimes.

    Thank you for this.

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    1. The fear attached to the unknown! Glad you pointed that out. It definitely takes a lot to be ready to look inside you, beyond the barriers that you have put up for yourself. With time, I’m sure you’ll be able to look inwards.

      Thank you so much for reading and your honest comment.


  5. Thank you for being vulnerable and sharing how your heart is. For what it’s worth, you’re amazing and in stepping out, God stepped in. I hope your heart recognizes that with time and remembers that you’re amazing!! Also, I am excited for all the change that will come your way because with that will come a new way of experiencing life and God!
    My heart is all sorts of things too. Uncertain, excited, at peace, but most of all, it is full of faith and trusting on God. Xx

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    1. Hey. Thank you so much. Yes, my heart is beginning to recognize that. You are amazing too! “Full of faith and trusting on God.” I love that. Thanks for reading and for your lovely comment. xx

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